the back story

 some time ago I was going thru seminary, getting educated to become some sort of Servant of God: maybe a church pastor, missionary, evangelist, etc. .. I didn't have a specific vision at the time... I started out growing up in west Michigan .. Christian home, CHristian schools, Christian Reformed to be exact, .. son of a pastor, and grandson of a pastor. Lucky me. or maybe not. just kiddin. .. I tried to run from my calling .. I didn't want to go into CHristian ministry. I saw the pain it caused the families of the pastor father ... but I knew that was no excuse.. but it took a while.. eventually I grudgingly accepted my call .. finished college.. actually tried other careers first, that I thought would be good enough to please God, .. but he kept bringing me back to formal ministry training..eventually went to Calvin Sem, ..and later Fuller SEm.. started my own ministry-- figured I would be a CHristian evanglist rather than the church route.. I wanted to save souls, not do funerals and weddings and one sermon on Sunday, etc. At that time I was still protestant inclined. I didn't know about the Catholic church yet --and that they have daily mass. For a priest, it could be x7 per week. I discovered Catholicism later. Now I call myself a pro-cath-ordox (protestant, catholic, orthodox_) . Anyways, as I started the ministry I began sending out DVD's I made , various topics, lots of pictures usually -- maybe of a missionary trip here or there, etc. These were sent out in bulk to people I remembered from church, school, etc, even extended family members. I also travelled extensively, even handing out pocket Bibles and Gospel tracts along the way- again in bulk-- not targeting one individual or family necessarily. It's like throwing bread crumbs to the birds. Many of these people I reached were already Christian by the way. I wasn't thinking they were "lost sheep." Anyways, every now and then a recipient of my bulk mail would erroneously think I was sending material only to them, specifically for them -, sort of a paranoia. The response I received from this individual shown here -is one of those- who responded angrily to nothing offensive. Unless the Good News is offensive. But whether or not a person likes the mail they receive, most of the time it's just a matter of throwing it away if they so choose. Or ignoring it. Forgetting about it. I wasn't sending repeat unwanted mail. I think I may have sent 2 at the very most 3 items over the course of a few years to this individual. And you can see how this individual responded. And I still have NOT read them because I immediately sensed and realized that this was angry mail intended to hurt me deeply, without cause. And it feels so angry that its toxic. I had to find a way to disseminate this- not just toss it. But pray over it, and especially pray for the sender. There's some unresolved issues. Pray for peace for this indivdiual. I know the family of course- and their history. And we've always loved and cared for them. I hope this will help start the healing - not that I am going to send him anything further or even alert him about this website. I hope that those of you who come across this will pray for the person I call "Bob Ko" (not real name), and his family. Just pray for healing and peace, and the love of Christ.